The Daily Hailey

Sometimes

2012-02-26T23:01:00.001-07:00

"Sometimes all you have to do is forget what you feel and remember what you deserve."

2012-02-26T15:05:00.001-07:00

Inspirational

2012-02-22T11:45:00.001-07:00

“I felt like the world was over, I felt pretty useless, I felt like I didn’t wanna do anything. You know, it was my first big love, it was awful when it ended. I will never write a personal record again, just for my own safety and protecting my heart. I don’t think I can do it again. I think it’s the kind of coming of age record and I don’t think you ever stop growing up and growing in and out of things and I think that’s where people have sort of bonded with the record. If they either remember feeling like how I felt, are feeling how I felt or haven’t felt how I felt and are looking forward to it even though it’s sad and painful, everyone loves a bit of drama. I’ve moved on now, and he moved on before it even ended.”
- Adele on ‘21’

Let it Go

2012-02-22T08:36:00.002-07:00

sometimes you have to let things go.

whether you push it away or let it walk away,

if it's not meant to be apart of your life, you have to eventually...

let it go.

A Post in Pictures

2012-02-21T10:33:00.004-07:00

Allison, Madi, and I decided to rearrange our living room. Well, let's just say it didn't turn out the way we planned, and we may or may not have messed around most of the time. But, nonetheless, it was fun times at Tuscany 321.

We have a little bit of roommate fun. Whether it's Nicole and I taking silly pictures, me taking pictures of Megan sleeping (she still doesn't know about that picture), or Madi and I pulling ridiculous faces on photo booth, we still have a grand ole' time!

And last but not least, Sam and I taking some ridiculous and some extremely good looking pictures.

College is fun.

Homework is dumb.

I probably waste more time than I should.

I have a ridiculous amount of laundry to do.

I drink more milk than usual. (weird)

I love my job.

I am not good at drawing.

Colors are my forte.

I'm blogging in class because I'm bored.

Sometimes growing up is hard, stressful, time consuming, and confusing.

But, everyday is a good day, some are just better than others.

some people.

2012-02-10T11:40:00.000-07:00

Some people are just naturally amazing writers. I follow a blog called lelove that has so many talented writers. It's amazing.

"So, best wishes all around, of course. And we'll exchange pleasantries and move on. I'll carry on making stupid mistakes, refusing to be vulnerable, and you'll probably fall in love. She'll be wonderful. She'll be perfect. She'll fit. I'll look back and wonder if you remember me. In years to come I might think about what could have been, then put it to the back of my mind. Hey, its the past. Move on. So thank you, and goodbye. All the best.

I wonder which memory of you will stay with me, there are so few."

-LeLove

Growing Pains

2012-02-01T00:12:00.000-07:00

For the past while I have been having neck pain. It started out as just a little ache. No worse pain that a bad nights sleep would cause. It was like that for probably a month, maybe two. Well, as time went on, it started getting worse. I was rubbing sombra, pretty much just biofreeze or icy hot on steroids, on my neck about 3 times a week. Sleeping became a burden, which eventually led me to getting a special pillow. The pillow worked for about 2 weeks and after those two weeks, it continually got worse. Well, it was worse enough that I finally told my boss and we started doing some physical therapy on it. The therapy wasn't helping. After we were done, my neck would be extremely stiff and I'd almost feel worse than I did before.

It was bearable until about a month ago. I started waking up with head aches, and the headaches would last all day no matter what I took. The headaches are always on the left side of my head towards the back and directly behind my left eye. I finally went to the doctor for it. I was not going to deal with constant headaches. We have now ordered an MRI scheduled for this friday. With my luck, it will show nothing. That seems to be how it always ends up, but I'm hoping for the best.

Tonight, I believe I experienced my first migraine. My vision was blurring every once in a while and I was extremely nauseous. Every time I tried to stand up, I thought I was going to pass out. I took the pain killer the doctor prescribed me, and an hour later, still nothing had happened. (My mother is probably going to kill me for not calling her if she reads this.) I had been sitting on the couch for almost 2 hours when it let up enough for me to go take a shower, and now here I sit. Still, with a headache great enough to make it hard for me to open my eyes.

So, I'll keep you guys posted as to what happens with the MRI.
I guess just hope for the best.

Dreams

2012-01-29T01:33:00.000-07:00

I often find myself spacing out during class, work, homework, etc. It's been happening more lately than ever. I'm not a dreamer. I never have been. Growing up, I would rarely dream of things happening to me. I didn't have much of an imagination or sense of adventure. I'm reserved. I always have been. When I would play barbies with my sister, she would always have to tell me what to say next. When I would color, I always stayed inside the lines. I don't like stepping outside of my comfort zone. I've always been this way, although I am becoming more open to trying new things, I still find myself so reserved.

I don't feel like that's a bad thing either. I don't feel like I'm boring. I don't feel like I lack personality. Just simply a sense of adventure, I guess. But, the real reason behind this jumble of pointless words is the fact that I have never caught myself daydreaming before. Yet lately, it happens more than ever.

Another thing about these daydreams is that I hate them. They are farfetched. They will never happen. They are life as if it were a movie, as if movies actually related to life. These daydreams will never happen. They are... too unrealistic.

I don't know what's causing this constant dreaming, but I'm enjoying it. I love "daydreaming" myself to sleep. I love distracting myself with these unrealistic thoughts of happiness and life exactly the way I want it. I love feeling like it is going to happen the way I see it. I love viewing my life as if it were a movie, as if it would actually happen.

Maybe I should blame the media for this. It would be wonderful, but it wouldn't happen. No group of people is going to start synchronized dancing behind me as I break out into some rock song on campus between the Snow building and the Romney building. Love songs won't start playing when there is a potential romantic even in my life and the lighting is just perfect. No one will call me at 2 a.m. telling me their waiting for me outside. I'm not 5 foot 6 and 125 pounds. My complexion isn't perfect, and my hair doesn't glow in the sunlight and blow in the wind. Life just isn't that way, so why all the daydreaming? I blame the movies.

That's why I'm writing it down. To see if somewhere between these lines I'll find an answer. I was browsing the internet a few days back, and came across a quote. If you know me, you know I'm not a huge quote fan. I feel like most of them are tacky and farfetched, but this one really got me.

"Don't let the imaginary person in your head keep you from loving the real one right in front of you."

I guess there is no rhyme or reason to this post. I'm not a huge fan of journals, and lately, I'm not in the mood to burden anyone with my problems. So, I'll throw it at my blog and let my whole 18 followers read it.

So, all in all, there is no point to this. But, it's frustrating me. I just want these "dreams" to become reality. Would it make me happy? I think so. That's what my heart wants. What I need, I don't know. What I want, I think my heart is telling me. So, when do I draw the line? When do I take a risk? When do I ignore my heart and listen to my head. When do I let it go?

Since I'm Wasting Time...

2012-01-24T11:43:00.003-07:00

It's official. I'm one of the world's best time wasters. I hope one day I find the reason behind my lack of motivation towards studying, but until then, I'm going to listen to my music, people watch in the MC, and blog.

College is basically a dream. I'm loving every second of this life they call "adulthood". Yes, my bedroom is about 8 ft. by 10 ft., and sometimes my roommates irritate me, and occasionally I find myself buried up to my eyeballs in homework, and I even settle for 4 hours of sleep, but none of that matters right now. It's just what happens when you get "old" and grow up. I love doing homework in the living room when all of my roommates are there with me making noise and making me laugh. And I love walking to class every morning knowing I'm actually going to use what I'm learning now for the rest of my life. And, I even love getting excited to hang out with my mom because I haven't seen her in like 24 hours (that's just how it is when you work with your mother).

I love this life. I was definitely ready for this time of my life.

Classes are going absolutely wonderful. I'm only taking 13 credits, but that's manageable for me, especially since I'm working too. My first day of school, I had 8 hours of homework. I thought I was going to die. It has slowed down a bit since then, but I can easily fit in 4 or 5 hours of homework a day. It's wonderful.

I've learned so much about so may different things since I've started school.

I've learned:

to be patient with people
pasta is every college students best friend.
i can get ready in less than half an hour.
it is possible not to slip on campus if you're careful.
everyone you come across will ask you the same 3 questions. What's your name? Where are you from? What's your major? EVERY TIME. WITHOUT FAIL.
some people still act like their in high school.
fast food is gross as are ramen noodles.
it is beneficial to take time for yourself everyday. No homework, roommates, or work. Just relaxation.
rexburg is possibly colder than rigby.

So, in reality, I haven't learned much that has to do with my major. But, we're only 2 weeks in. I can get away with that right now.

If you feel like you're missing out on pictures, you definitely are, and because I love you, I will show you some pictures to keep you happy until next time.

2012-01-17T22:11:00.001-07:00

I have thought about this many times, and recently the thoughts I'm about to write have been evading my head for days. Maybe even weeks.

I'm not looking for someone new other than myself. I'm an adult now, but I don't feel like I am. I'm not ready for a relationship. I'm still trying to find myself. There is a time for everything, and now is my time to heal, grow strong, learn who I am, find out what I want to do, think about past decisions and make new decisions based off of them, and be myself. Learn to live with myself, my scars and my memories. Learn how to always feel safe and not let that one single frightened voice in my head stop me from having open ears, an open mind, and, of course, an open heart.

What has been, has been. What is now, is now. What will happen next, will happen next.

inspired by lelove

2012-01-10T21:33:00.002-07:00

My homework load is absolutely insane.

Which is why this post is only this long.

I'm just letting you all know I'm still alive...

BARELY.

Information

2012-01-06T20:34:00.004-07:00

I was just informed by my roommates that roommate code says,

"Every time someone kisses a boy, they have to buy all the other roommates icecream."

I guess there's no kissing and telling for me this semester!

A Little Update...

2012-01-06T00:16:00.000-07:00

Well, I'm all settled in and have started my first semester of college.

First off, my roommates are absolutely wonderful. Whether it's "studying" out in the living room, teaching each other how to do the worm, or singing and playing guitar together, they're always fun to be around! I got so lucky.

Second, school is going great. First day of school... I had 8 hours worth of homework. Yes, I took a much needed hour long break to go on a drive with my friend I hadn't seen in a while (totally worth it), but I still had 8 stinking hours of homework. I only had 4 hours worth today.

Here's a funny little thing for you guys. I'm not much of a spiritual person. I never have been, and I blame that on myself, but I've only been here for 3 days now and I cannot even begin to tell you how much different I feel spiritually. The atmosphere makes it so easy to focus. I'm not scared to walk around by myself in the dark. I have heard VERY FEW swear words. My professors are all wonderful. And, I've learned so much already.

I was recently assigned to read a talk in my Art 110 class. It's probably one of the first talks I've ever actually sat down, read, payed attention to, and took notes on. I absolutely loved it. It was a message from the first presidency given by President Kimball. So, I won't go into detail, but if you'd like you can read it here. The Gospel Vision of the Arts.

"We are proud of the artistic heritage that the Church has brought to us from its earliest beginnings, but the full story of Mormonism has never yet been written nor painted nor sculpted nor spoken. It remains for inspired hearts and talented fingers yet to reveal themselves. They must be faithful, inspired, active Church members to give life and feeling and true perspective to a subject so worthy. Such masterpieces should run for months in every movie center, cover every part of the globe in the tongues of the people, written by great artists, purified by the best critics."

The Gospel Vision of the Arts

President Spencer W. Kimball

Adult Problems

2012-01-02T21:48:00.001-07:00

That's right friends!

I am all moved into my new apartment!

I love it! :)

So... let's get some before and after photos going.

BEFORE:

IT WAS DISASTEROUS.

So, now on to the good stuff.

AFTER:

That, my friends, is a hand drawn (by Jarom West) picture of Audrey Hepburn given to me by Taylor Cummins for Christmas.
Isn't it amazing?

Isn't it cute?! :)

And... here's a little video tour four you just so anyone who can't come visit can see my little humble abode. Enjoy!!

2 Years.

2011-12-28T22:36:00.002-07:00

Summer came and summer went. Relationships ended, and began.

Thank you for helping me through so much.

Whether it was texting me at ridiculous hours of the night, or going on picnics in the park together. Going on hikes just to clear our heads, or calling each other to vent. Hosting campfire nights, or letting all us losers use your hot tub. You truly were one of the best friends I've ever had.

And now, you're a missionary. Rapid City, South Dakota has no idea what's coming for them.

To one of the best missionaries that area will ever see,

Thank you for being my best friend.

You are one of the best examples I could ask for.

So, here's to you, Elder Dahl,

I'll see you in 2 years.

Safe & Sound

2011-12-26T13:09:00.001-07:00

"I remember tears streaming down your face when I said I'll never let you go.

When all those shadows almost killed your light.

I remember you said don't leave me here alone.

But, all that's dead and gone and past tonight.

Just close your eyes.

The sun is going down.

You'll be alright.

No one can hurt you now.

Come morning light,

you and I'll be safe & sound.

Don't you dare look out your window,

darling, everything's on fire.

The war outside our door keeps raging on.

Hold onto this lullaby.

Even when music's gone.

Gone.

Just close your eyes.

The sun is going down.

You'll be alright.

No one can hurt you now.

Come morning light,

you and I'll be safe & sound.

Just close your eyes.

You'll be alright.

Come morning light,

you and I'll be safe & sound."

"Safe & Sound"

-Taylor Swift

Merry Christmas!

2011-12-25T20:41:00.002-07:00

Ahhhh, the joys of the Christmas season!

I love it so much! I love tradition. I love the season! I love the movies! I love the music! I love the weather! I love presents! And I love the stories!

Christmas's are always absolutely wonderful for me. There's always so much family, fun, and food involved.

Pause.

I just have to show off my holiday cheer (attire) for just a second.

Christmas sweaters. Light nails. And my "special occasion" hair.

ANYWAY.........

We had our annual Christmas Eve party. Read about last year's Christmas Eve party HERE!!

This year we had all the same stuff... including a pinata!

Yes... Rudolph the Red Nosed Reindeer was our pinata this year.

No snowmen hung around their necks this time!

And the Mexican food, from the land of my Uncle Josh's people, was absolutely divine. (except for the molé. that's always just sick-nasty) So, enjoy some pictures of our scrumptious Christmas Eve Fiesta...

Whether it's eating our brains out, or doing our annual caroling around the tree, Christmas Eve's in our family are always so fun. I love my family so much.

So... now Christmas...

I have a little story...

There once was a father who sometimes got what I like to call... Christmas Fever. Christmas Fever is what you get when you are really excited to buy gifts for others. Well, this father decided to go and get a lot of presents from just him instead of him and his wife. So, really when all the presents were wrapped and under the tree... it was as if there were two Christmas's!

So... in other words. My dad had some serious Christmas Fever this year.

Which leads to this....

I can't complain though, seeing as he got me a rad gift.

So... here's some stuff I got...

A mini crock pot and a quesadilla maker. :)

$10 subway card. $40 jamba card. $15 iTunes card.

A bedside lamp. Kitchen stuff for days. And a flipping cute memo board.

Oh.. and this camera here...

Nikon Coolpix L120.

No big deal, right?

MY LIFE IS COMPLETE.

So, my Christmas was absolutely superb!

Oh... and I move out in 9 days.

Just saying.

2011-12-23T17:05:00.002-07:00

"And now you're out there on your own?

These tangled lines all come undone.

Tell me how it feels letting go?

You try your luck in your best suit,

tied to a broken parachute.

It's the hole in my heart you fell through.

If you say I'm wrong, I'll say you're wrong,

but no one has to be right.

I've had better days than this.

And if you say you're wrong, I'll say I'm wrong,

nothing could be worth this fight."

-Shoelaces by The Submarines

Swedish Massages Part I

2011-12-21T20:02:00.001-07:00

What more could someone ask for than a Swedish Massage?

Well, I didn't even have to ask!

Missy flipping got me a gift card good for a 1 hour swedish massage! I seriously almost died. What a great idea from such a great best friend!

Well, not only did she give me one, but she got herself one too! So, we will be going to get swedish massages together! What is a swedish massage you ask?

A swedish massage is a massage that promotes relaxation, eases muscle tension, and creates other health benefits such as improvement in blood circulation and more oxygen and nutrients to cells.
Soooo... all in all...
My best friend is awesome.
Period.
End of story.
I mean... look at that face...
What's there not to love?

And...
Just between you and I,
she's getting her present tomorrow.
And instead of her face looking like that ^^^
It's gonna look like this...

G L O R I O U S

A Christmas Story

2011-12-20T14:23:00.002-07:00

It was the week before Christmas, and all through my house,

Not a family member was stirring, not even a mouse.

The stockings were hung by the chimney with care,

and suddenly I realized my most recent affair.

I was one who was nestled all snug in my bed,

while visions of social networking danced in my head.

And mamma in her 'kerchief, and I in my cap,

while sitting on facebook instead of covering gifts in gift wrap.

When in my mind, there arose such a clatter,

I sprang from my bed as I realized what was the matter.

Away from my computer I flew like a flash,

And called my best friend to help me take out my "trash".

I told her my idea that was fail-proof itself,

She agreed to assist me, agreed to become my Christmas "elf".

When, what to my wondering mind should appear,

But thoughts of an undisturbed Christmas full of Christmas cheer.

With an undisturbed Christmas and the lack of connection,

This plan would become my anti-christmas-social protection.

More rapid than eagles I signed onto Facebook,

And went to my settings to have a little look.

Now settings! Now, password! Now I'm nervous! Then, change!

Soon enough I would be out of Facebook's distracting range.

To the lap of my best friend went my sacred laptop.

Then my password became her own secret thought.

As the plan fell in place, I realized something great,

I was away from Facebook's deadly Christmas fate.

The thought of not thinking of family during this time,

Makes Christmas uneventful, upsetting, and a crime.

And then, in a twinkling, I felt a wonderful feeling,

The excitement I felt made me jump through the ceiling!

As I closed my computer, and was getting in bed,

A look of approval came from my dear friend.

With a feeling of achievement, I realized my Christmas

Would be full of family and candy and richness.

So, in closing, I say to my social networking friends,

Facebook, for me, will not become a Christmas trend.

If you need to get ahold of me, I will have my cell phone,

No Facebook-ing will be hard since I am Facebook-prone.

BUT, enjoy your Christmas, I will not be on.

I will be enjoying family and friends all Christmas break long.

Yes, my dear friends, I will not be participating in Christmas Facebook-ing this year. No Facebook for me!

I have decided to have Missy change my Facebook password and not tell me what it is until December 30, 2011.

Facebook is time consuming. It really is a waste of time and I want to have my Christmas centered around family this year. It is going to be hard for me, but there's really nothing I can do seeing as how I won't know my password.

I will still be blogging, heck I'll probably be blogging more, so check often and I'll keep you guys up to date just so it doesn't seem like I've fallen off the face of the earth.

I love you all, and Merry Christmas!

Absolutely Beautiful

2011-12-20T01:00:00.004-07:00

is what this quote is. So, I will share it.

"You will always find ways to my heart, but I pray that one day the taste of your name, which sounds of beauty and sunshine and smiles and bliss and the warmth of a blessed day, will sound so, though I am not hopeful. Know that any time I need to see your face I will just close my eyes – you will always be there.

And no matter what, I will always love you. And while I will always hope, and pray and wish for the day when you come to me and say “I am yours, all yours, for always,” I will also just pray for a day when I won’t need you so badly every minute of every day and every second in between. You are a love, beyond love, and you will always have my whole entire heart."

A Game of Shadows

2011-12-18T18:33:00.005-07:00

Let's talk about Sherlock Holmes: A Game of Shadows.

First Off... Let me say rottentomatoes should no longer be trusted. 62% Seriously?!

Not cool!

A Game of Shadows is the best movie I've seen for months!!!

The action and filming was absolutely phenomenal! I seriously loved it!

I went with a big group of friends and we all had nothing but good things to say about it.

It was very action packed and Robert Downy Jr. was flipping hilarious in it!

And let's not forget to talk about how stinking beautiful he is.

Feast your eyes upon this eye candy right here...

I want me some of that for Christmas!

OVER AND OUT!

2011-12-14T00:19:00.004-07:00

“If a wound goes deep, the healing might be as bad as what causedit.”

–The Spitfire Grill

Daydreamer

2011-12-09T23:35:00.001-07:00

"Daydreamer,
With eyes that make you melt, he lends his coat for shelter.
Plus he's there for you when he shouldn't be.
But he stays all the same, waits for you,
Then sees you through."
-Adele

And that is what love is.

No one says it better than Adele.

You Say, But You

2011-12-06T21:05:00.001-07:00

"You say that you love rain, but you open your umbrella when it rains.

You say that you love the sun, but you find a shadow spot when the sun shines.

You say that you love the wind, but you close your windows when wind blows.

This is why I am afraid, you say that you love me too."

-William Shakespear

Words...

2011-12-04T01:45:00.001-07:00

"That's what you get when you date a song and dance man; a song and dance."

-Irving Berlin's White Christmas

I am...

2011-12-01T09:30:00.001-07:00

The Goddess of All Things Chocolate Chip.

So, I'm really good at making chocolate chip cookies.

There is a secret to chocolate chip cookies very few people realize.

And, NO, I will not tell you the secret.

Anyway, I made chocolate chip cookies last night, and I am not going to tell you how many I have eaten.

They are so good.

I always love these cookies when my mother or myself makes them, but today, they are even better than all the times before. They're just so rich and creamy.

Random Fact: Milk chocolate chips are ten thousand times better than Semi-sweet.

So, because I love these cookies so much, and because they are the best chocolate chip cookies ever to be found on this earth, I am going to show you a few pictures of them. And of myself. :)

^^^ This one is my favorite. :) ^^^

Only because that's the actual face I pull when eating these chocolate chip cookies.

p.s. I have a whole plate left.

OVER AND OUT!

A Belated Thanksgiving Post

2011-11-28T20:20:00.001-07:00

How could I forget to blog a thankful blog post?!
Maybe it's the fact that I was concerned about the 43 hour work week ahead of me.
Maybe it's the fact that I was concerned about what to get my father for Christmas.
Maybe it's the fact that I am now at the stage of my life where family is more important that blogging... yes, I went there.

Okay, so anyway, I'm going to present you blog readers with a thankful post. A small list of a few things I am thankful for. Can I just tell you how lucky I am? And keep in mind this would be the world's longest blog post EVER if I listed even half of the things I am grateful for. So... here we go.

My Mother. She is in Mexico right now, and I am sorta (halfway) doing a small part of her job at work. That woman does so much. I have no idea how she does it. And really... I mean... look how adorable she is.

My Daddy. I really have the best dad in this whole world. He's always making sure I'm well off, and as annoying as it is, reminds me to lock the door even though he knows I always remember. He's constantly looking out for everyone else before himself. And because of him, I have a full set of pots and pans for school. :)

My best friend, Missy. Guys, Missy is seriously the most incredible person ever. I'm totally irritating sometimes. I also like to talk. Sometimes I talk so much, I have to tell myself to stop talking. Missy just sits there and listens. Who does that?! I seriously cannot even begin to express how grateful I am for her in my life. She is a gem. :)

My Siblings. I have the best 3 siblings I could ever ask for. Grant is just a good big brother. He always hugs me everytime he see's me, even if it was just the day before. Ashley is the best big sister ever because she listens to my dumb girly stories and tells me straight up how it is. And Whitney, well, Whitney is a good sister because she's sitting here at 9 pm just keeping me company. I've got 3 of the best.
My Job. I know it's very common to hear people say "I am so grateful for my job, especially since the economy is so bad." Well, that's not why I appreciate my job. I am blessed with the opportunity to help people who are hurting. I didn't start appreciating this until about a month ago, but I've noticed on days I don't work, I feel worthless because I haven't done anything for anyone. I have learned to love helping others. It truly is a great blessing.

There are so many more things I am so grateful for, but there are too many to list. Those are a few of the things I am constantly reminded of how blessed I am to have in my life. I honestly couldn't ask for anything more.

Nothing Makes Me Stronger Than Your Fragile Heart2011-11-20T22:14:00.001-07:00
"I've waited a hundred years, but I'd wait a million more for you.Nothing prepared me for the privilege of being yours.If I had only felt the warmth within your touch,If I had only seen how you smile when you blush,Or how you curl your lip when you concentrate enough.I would have known what I was living for, What I've been living for.
Your love is my turning page, only the sweetest words remain.Every kiss is a cursive line.Every touch is a redefining phrase.
I surrender who I've been for who you are.Nothing makes me stronger than your fragile heart.If I had only felt how it feels to be yours, I would have known what I've been living for all along.What I've been living for.
We're tethered to the story we must tell.When I saw you, well, I knew we'd tell it well.With the whisper, we will tame the vicious scenes,Like a feather bringing kingdoms to their knees."
Turning Page- Sleeping at Last
Life has been on my mind a lot lately, and I've been meaning to blog and let off some steam, but I just haven't had the right time or words to post. Struggle isn't the right word for the past little while. I'm not struggling, it's just a strange time. I'm use to the holiday season being an exciting and happy time, but of course, my mind has been running at an unmanageable pace. I miss a lot of things right now, and I'm not sure why, but that song just seems to sum all my feelings up. Whether it's the lyrics, the sound, or both, it just makes me feel better.  I miss my family, friends, being young, and most of all memories. It seems like everywhere I turn it reminds me of something I miss. Luckily, it's a good kind of miss (if that makes sense). I'm not sad things in my life are gone or over, but I miss them. I do. Sometimes I just get a little envious of what I once had. Life is easy when you're young. It's slightly entertaining to think of things that I use to get so worked up about. Things that really mean nothing now. I've grown up so much and I am so grateful for that. I've learned more than I thought I would in such a short time, but that doesn't stop me from wishing I had a few things I once had.
Life is good. I am happy. I am healthy. I have parents who love me. I have a family that is together, happily together. I have friends that put up with my insanity (shout out to Missy!). I have a job that allows me to help people, and there isn't anything much more rewarding than that. I have absolutely nothing to complain about. Life is good.
I'm slowly learning it is possible to feel things all at different times. I have things to be happy about and things to be sad about, but what I, and so many others, are going through is normal, and it's happening now. I think it's suppose to happen now, and now is right on time.  

Not so Annual After-all...

2011-11-15T19:01:00.001-07:00

So, if you don't remember, I get strep throat annually. Example: My Annual Gift.

So, there's a little story about my yearly strep throat for you.

Well, here's another one.

I HAVE STREP THROAT AGAIN. AGAIN.

It's seriously driving me absolutely insane.

When I get strep I get it so bad. I'm not sure why, but it seriously wipes me out for days. I don't sleep. I wake up every hour on the half our. For Real. From 1:30 am to 4:30 am I just wake up over and over again. Also, I can't hardly swallow. Right now the thought of swallowing anything terrifies me. To take my pills this morning, I had to talk myself into taking them. It feels like I'm swallowing giant rocks. Another reason why it kills me is because I get gnarly body aches. My neck and back feel like I got hit by a bus. I know everyone gets body aches when they're sick, but mine hurt me so bad I don't even want to move.

CURSE STREP THROAT.

I'm totally being a baby here, but I just am venting. Yeah. So, there you go.

There's a sweet little strep throat story for your ears.

I'm such a baby.

OVER AND OUT.

A Long Thought

2011-11-05T22:01:00.000-06:00

Lately, the thought of growing up has been crossing my mind a lot. Multiple times a day. I often think of how strange of a time it is in my life. I feel like I'm going no where. Just sitting here waiting for the important parts of my life to begin is extremely boring.

It's also very disheartening. Adjusting to major life changes is harder than I anticipated, so, for today, and today only, I allowed myself to shed a tear or two. It felt good. So good. I have almost felt robotic the past few weeks. Maybe even the last month or two. So, I broke my daily routine and took a few minutes to myself and just let everything go. It wasn't dramatic. It wasn't for attention. It wasn't because I'm sad. It was because that's what I needed.

So many people think crying is a sign of weakness. It isn't though. We cry because we are happy. We cry because we are hurting. We cry because we are grateful. We cry because we are tired. Why is crying so frowned upon?
Sometimes it's that little extra push you need to keep you going.
Sometimes it's the feeling you get when your best friend breaks down in tears the second she sees you because she trusts you that much.
Sometimes it's the release you feel when you shed a tear or two just because you can.

So, today, I shed a few tears and tomorrow will be just as wonderful of a day as it would be had I not.

Another One of my Lists.

2011-10-24T22:59:00.000-06:00

Life has been crazy lately, yet I never seem to not have enough time to think. I've been so happy lately. It feels like everything is just how it is suppose to be with family, friends, college, work, etc. It has been a good few weeks. I've met so many great new people. I'm not even in school yet and I am already having so much fun. But, like I said, with how busy I have been, my brain has not slowed down in the slightest bit.

I have thought a lot about where I've been going with my life lately. Happiness seems to follow me everywhere I end up. I think there are too many reasons why to list all of them, but I have come up with a few thoughts. I feel bad for people who don't put themselves out there, for people who don't take risks. I pity them. Which is where this list comes into the picture.

I have literally been writing these thoughts down. And now it's time to share.

I pity:

-any girl who has never believed she is beautiful.
-any person who has gone a whole day without smiling.
-anyone who purposely has a bad day for attention.
-anyone who has avoided doing something out of fear.
-any person who hasn't splurged on a piece of clothing.
-any boy who hasn't recently told his mother how much he loves her.
-any one who has never felt rebellious.
-anyone who doesn't know what makes them happy.
-any person living in the past.

Life is so good. It's definitely okay to not be happy. It takes a while to find happiness, but when it comes, it's the best feeling in the world.
"Sometimes it's hard to follow your heart. Tears don't mean you're losing, everybody's bruising."

Why I Hate Halloween

2011-10-18T19:53:00.000-06:00

Yes! Believe it.

I HATE HALLOWEEN.

There are many reasons why I hate this holiday. You know what, I'm not going to call it a holiday because it shouldn't be considered one. It's just some day someone declared.... celebrate-able (that's not a word).

ANYWAY... I don't like halloween.

Here is why:

Number 1 reason why I hate Halloween- It is scary. I do not like scary things. I HATE the feeling of being scared. The idea of people in scary masks and costumes freaks me the heck out. Especially when scary noises get involved. Bleh.

Number 2 reason why I hate Halloween- I DO NOT like haunted houses. I don't like the dark. I don't like scary things. I don't like not being able to see where I'm going. And I don't like paying to be scared. So, if you put all of these together... you pretty much have Halloween summed up in a few sentences.

SCARY.

Number 3 reason why I hate Halloween- I can't trick-or-treat anymore. Seriously. There goes ALL the fun of Halloween. I love candy. But now, I have no free access to loads of candy once a year. It makes me sad. It is one reason why I am so bitter towards Halloween. Curse this holiday.

So, there are a few reasons why Halloween makes me angry, sad, bitter, and scared.

You may think I'm crazy, but I really do feel this way about this day. But... on the bright side, it's one holiday closer to CHRISTMAS!!!!!

Very Proud of Myself

2011-10-11T10:33:00.000-06:00

So, I recorded a song last night.
I haven't done this in 11 months but after listening to the song I did last night, I realized I need to do it more often.
I impressed myself.
:)
Take a little listen right here.

Crazy For You by Adele

Let me know what you think! :)

Oh My Gosh.

2011-10-09T21:32:00.000-06:00

Did you know I love my life?

Yes, I love my life.

Here is a few reasons why...

Oh my gosh.

How cute are we?

Look at all that cuteness right there in that picture.

ANYHOW,

Let me just tell you about my life for a second.

1. It's great.

2. I am so happy.

3. I am loving everything!

I have had so much fun lately. I've met a ton of new people over the past few weeks. So many great people that are just flat out wonderful! I also have done a few crazy things I never thought I'd do. Let me tell ya, I'm rebellious. Not really, but kind of.

I love pretty much everything about everything right now and there is really no point of this blog post so, I'm just rambling on about absolutely nothing.

I love you all. :)

Current Favorite Song

2011-10-06T22:59:00.000-06:00

details in the fabric by jason mraz

"if it's a broken part, replace it. if it's a broken arm then brace it. if it's a broken heart then face it."

The man's a lyrical genius.

Best Part of My Day

2011-10-01T11:02:00.002-06:00

"Hello!"

Thomas S. Monson is one of my most favorite people on this whole earth. :)

Hailey..... after the dentist.

2011-09-24T19:13:00.000-06:00

So... someone commented on one of my blog posts.
This is what the comment said:
"Aww, you poor thing! Really, it's not fun for a lot of people. It can be a stressful experience. But in the end it really helps your teeth when you go through with it."

Guess what post they posted it on...
This one: The Dentist is E.V.I.L.
Does anyone else find this as strange as I do?
Me too.

Well, to try to help myself understand the whole situation better, I clicked on the poster (person who commented on the blog post) and you cannot guess who it was. His name is Eddie Storms and he's from Buckhead Dental Partners INC. I browsed around their website just to get a little knowledge regarding this Eddie person commenting on my blog.
Well, my friends, they're located in Atlanta, Georgia. Their main reason for me to join them was because they provide comfortable care. They educate their patients. And last, but not least, they're at a convenient location.
.............. AHHHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!

SOMEONE PLEASE TELL ME WHY THIS WAS SO HILARIOUS TO ME! I literally was laughing out loud. Not just chuckling, LAUGHING. LOUD.
Oh good heavens.

But... just so Eddie Storms at Buckhead Dental Partners INC. knows, just because you provide comfort, educate your patients, and have a convenient location does not mean I want to become a patient at your clinic.
NEWSFLASH:
My dentist office is EXTREMELY fancy. Probably considered comfortable to those who don't mind the dentist.
You educate your patients? I feel smart about my teeth. I know to floss, brush twice a day for 2 minutes, AND I use mouthwash. I'm no dummy.
Oh, and convenient location?.... You're office is in Atlanta, Georgia.

I live in Idaho.

A Few Odd Little Things I Do

2011-09-20T20:49:00.000-06:00

So, over the past little while I have been noticing a few strange little things that I do. Not just once or twice, but every time. Here is a few odd little things I do.

1. I don't eat the chunks of stuff in salsa.

I couldn't tell you why I do it, but I just dip my chip in the juice part of the salsa. The chunks of peppers, tomatoes, etc. gross me out. Not the taste, the texture. I don't like biting into a chip with squishy vegetables on it. I love the taste of salsa, just not the textures. And hey, it satisfies me!

2. I say "ouch" after every time I sneeze.

I honestly have no idea when I started this, but every single time, without a doubt, I say "ouch" after I sneeze. The best part about this is that it very rarely hurts. No, I'm not a wuss, I am just simply weird.

3. I always move my contact in my eye.

Yes, this is a terrible thing that I do, but I do it. I have since the day I got contacts. I push my contact around in my eye when it starts to get too dry. It makes my eye water just enough that it moistens my contact enough to feel better for an hour or two. I've been asked multiple times, "Did you just touch your eyeball?" I always reply, "Yeah, I know. I'm a freak." I am a freak. I accept that.

4. I leave kitchen drawers open.

Whenever I do anything in the kitchen unload the dishwasher, get a fork or spoon, etc. I leave the drawer open about an inch. DISCLAIMER: I do not consciously do this!!! The reason I noticed this is due to the fact that it makes my mom super angry because crumbs and such fall into the drawers. I personally think it is kind of funny.

5. I scream my brains out in my car.

No, not scream scream. Scream sing! I sing so loud in my car it is slightly ridiculous. I know for a fact it doesn't sound good. I don't think anyone can sing that loud and have it sound good. I think I just like to do it because it makes me feel like I can sing better than I really can. I do it because it makes me happy.

So, in conclusion, I am a freak. I don't know why I do these things, but I do. Judge me if you like! I love myself just the way I am, despite my strange little quirks.

Let Me Vent

2011-09-11T23:01:00.000-06:00

Anyone could tell you it's just one of those days. An off day might be a good way to describe it. I have a lot of different feelings going on right now and I can't explain them. Sometimes I wish there was an emotion that was something other than happy, sad, mad, stressed, joyous, cheerful, etc. Nothing really does it for me right now.

I'm mostly just venting. I do this when I don't want to burden others with my problems. Right now is one of those moments when I wish I could get in my car and just drive. For as long as I possibly could. I would love to be anywhere but here right now, yet I think if I were anywhere else I would feel the same.

Life is uncomfortable right now. There are a lot of things going on right now I don't know how to handle. Things I don't know how to deal with are consuming my every thought and controlling my ever action. I need to break away from this routine I have. It isn't healthy. Right now I feel like it's going to be like this forever. It's such a strange feeling I've never felt before.

I have so many questions that are going unanswered right now. I need to open up to change. I get so comfortable. I was too comfortable with the way my life was going. Seventeen and much too comfortable with everything. I need to break so many habits. I need new interests. I need to stop worrying. I need to stop thinking. I need to stop wishing things would be a certain way. I need to stop caring. I need to stop checking my phone at night. I need to stop being so loyal. I need to let go of the past. I need to stop hurting.
My mom always tells me, "Your life is what you make it." "You're the only one that can change the way you think." Well, I guess there is a lot I need to start doing to make those changes. I shouldn't bend to every word. I should be there for myself right now. I should not be angry that my pictures didn't transfer over to my new phone. I should be strong and take down all my pictures in my room. I should not let myself say certain things. I should not let this get to me. I should stop venting.
I miss my friends. I miss very specific things right now. I want to go places and do things I know will hurt me, but I'm trying to be less vulnerable. I don't know if I'm hurting, or if I'm just struggling with growing up.

When I started writing this post I didn't realize how I would feel as I begin to finish it. I think tomorrow I will be making a lot of changes. Starting with all of my pictures. I think it will be okay to start there. I've got a big day ahead of me.

I Love My Friends.

2011-09-08T13:38:00.000-06:00

Of course, I do.

My friends are probably some of the best people on this whole planet. Why? Oh there are ten billion reasons why.

They are crazy.

They get together for dinner.

They say very funny things.

They make funny faces.

They take funny pictures of themselves.

Oh, let's just face it.

They're just flat out FUNNY!

I LOVE THEM.

I could show you why I love them.... Do you want to see why I love them?

Are you sure?....... Okay. You convinced me!

You see, there are many reasons why I love my friends and these pictures show a few of them. You kids are wonderful.

You also need to come home. :)

I love you all!!

My Annual Gift.

2011-09-06T10:11:00.000-06:00

Every year, about this time, I receive a gift.

It's not noticable. It's small (to others).

It starts with an "S".

It's annoying.

I hate it.

YUP!

You guessed it!!!

I have STREP THROAT.

Yes.

My body officially hates me.

I get strep throat every single year, but luckily I caught it early this year.

Curse you strep throat. I will punch myself if I get it next year.

So... expect to see me punching myself on the streets.

PEACE OUT.

Excited and Stupid.

2011-09-04T11:07:00.000-06:00

So, I got a new phone.
The DROID 2X.

I am excited because this phone really is awesome. It's got a ton of stuff I'll use, I just have to figure out how to use it first.

So, the point of this post is to tell you the phone makes me feel stupid.
I'm not smart enough for a smart phone.
Hopefully within the next few days I'll be able to get the hang of it. Goodness, technology.

Intervention

2011-09-02T17:06:00.000-06:00

I need an intervention.

I had $100 more in my checking account than I thought I did...

Ask me what I did with it...

Or just assume. I'm sure you'd assume right.

YES!

I spent it.

Not ALLLLLLLLLLL of it.

Most of it though.

(I hope my mother doesn't read this.)

I love online shopping.

But! In my defense,

2 shirts, 3 rings, 3 pairs of earrings, 5 necklaces, 4 head wraps, 2 bags, 1 pair of sunglasses and 1 dress later, I am extremely happy.

I love it.

I'm so excited.

I'm going to post pictures of my treasures as soon as they get here.

OH. Did I mention I got free shipping? :)

I'm awesome.

So, if you're interested in helping my addicting, either give me money, or schedule me an intervention.

OVER AND OUT.

I'm awesome.

2011-09-01T23:35:00.001-06:00

Ask me if I just bought 21 items online.
I'll say yes.
Ask me if I spent $99.
I'll say yes, again.
Oh gosh. I love Modcloth and Forever21.
They're my drug.

I am me.

2011-08-31T23:58:00.000-06:00

I am me.

I have tiny ears.

I have big eyes.

I have a small nose.

I dress nice.

I sing sometimes.

I blog.

I miss my college friends.

I miss theater.

I miss being a little kid.

I struggle writing about myself.

When given the opportunity, I love to help others.

I sometimes feel as if I am the only one.

There are a lot of changes in my life.

Hard changes.

I am surrounded by many blessings.

A numerous amount.

I am growing up.

Quickly.

I am Hailey.

great findings.

2011-08-27T11:55:00.000-06:00

Oh, dear Maggie, how I adore you.
Day 1 of our vacation was a success. If you have not gone to see Dirty Rotten Scoundrels at The Playmill Theater, GO NOW. My friends, Christian. is. hilarious. I almost pee'd my pants a few times.

ANYWHOOOOO- I just bought some super legit moccasins. They're like.... real moccasins too. Super warm. Leather. They even have a buckle on them. :)
I love em.

I'll see you peeps later.

5 Day Vay Cay.

2011-08-25T17:37:00.000-06:00

What does that mean, you ask?
Oh, it only means that Missy and I set off on our 5 day long vacation tomorrow!!!!
You guys, both of us have been anticipating this for over a month now. I guess there's just some strange satisfaction that you get with planning and going on a vacation without parents or chaperones.
Our journey starts tomorrow afternoon! We're heading up to West Yellowstone around 1. Luckily, we know Sam!! His parents own The Playmill Theater up in West. We're going to see High School Musical Friday night and then Dirty Rotten Scoundrels Saturday night. Good ole' Samuel got us free tickets. Our plans are to party the nights away and waste the day's away! What a life. :)
We'll leave sunday and head off to Logan to see Taylor, Emily, Jacob, and Steven at their new home! They're all cool at college while we're here being lame waiting for it to start.
In short, we're super excited. Nothing compares to the anticipation of a vacation. :)

Famous in Rexburg?

2011-08-24T16:41:00.000-06:00

That's right my friends.

HARRISON FORD AND CALISTA FLOCKHART WERE AT THE GRAND OLE' YELLOWSTONE BEAR WORLD.

don't you think for one second that i'm joking.

So, Larissa (a bearworld intern) runs into the gift shop to tell my friend Julia and I that Calista Flockhart from Brothers and Sisters is here. I'm not gonna lie, I don't think either of us thought it was that big of a deal. Neither of us really knew anything about here. We probably wouldn't have even recognized her had we not googled pictures. ANYWAY, Julia went outside to do some celebrity creepin', and she noticed a man standing next to her that looked a lot like Harrison Ford, but of course, being in Idaho, and especially in Idaho and at Bear World, Julia shoved the thought from her head.

THEN, our friend Spencer (a keeper at bear world) walked into the gift shop in a daze-like state, looked me straight in the eyes and said, "Hailey, Hon Solo is here." I returned the blank stare. "Hailey, Indiana Jones, THE HARRISON FORD, is here right now." I laughed. So did Courtney, the Bear World manager. Then after a little bit of convincing, Courtney started to get really nervous, so I decided to take the initiative of finding out myself. I did some celebrity creepin' myself, and SURE ENOUGH, there's the one and only, HARRISON FORD, snapping pictures of his wife and kid feeding the baby bear cubs. Now listen people, Bear World has seen many stars including Abigail and Spencer Breslen, Josh Halloway, and The Osmond Family. Harrison Ford is pretty legit. I FREAKING SAW HIM. Gosh.

To make a long story short, Harrison Ford walked past me close enough for me to breathe on him. I was too starstruck to even dream of saying anything to him. But, I did help his wife at the cash register as Julia gave her the worlds largest fudge samples. NO BIG DEAL. :)

Oh, and did I mention Julia talked to him?

I guess that's not really a big deal either.

OVER AND OUT!

P.S. I'm awesome.

Carpal Tunnel

2011-08-14T22:46:00.000-06:00

Carpal tunnel syndrome is pressure on the median nerve -- the nerve in the wrist that supplies feeling and movement to parts of the hand. It can lead to numbness, tingling, weakness, or muscle damage in the hand and fingers.

AND IT SUCKS BIG TIME.

I look like I'm wearing a black Michael Jackson glove.
I type like an idiot now.
It burns when I fold shirts at work.
Old people ask me all the time how I have carpal tunnel at such a young age.

NEWSFLASH... all my jobs require me to use my right hand.

does that mean i can quit...................

BUSYBEEVINTAGE

2011-08-08T23:42:00.000-06:00

I want to hug Lauren Brimley.

She recently started her own shop, and I'd just like to take a moment to brag.

CAN WE SAY ADORABLE?!

Can I just please hug her?
I will buy again soon!
:)

August 6, 2011

2011-08-08T23:02:00.000-06:00

Courtney Epperson and Geno Giovanini were married on August 6, 2011. They were married in Geno's parent's back yard at 4 o'clock in the evening. The wedding and the reception were both beautiful. They are one of the most beautiful couples I've ever seen, and I cannot wait to see where they go in life. I wish them the best of luck, and congratulations.

I love you guys.

A Phone Call Away.

2011-08-06T00:36:00.000-06:00

I just had a phone call with a friend I haven't talked to on a personal level in almost 2 months. It was a phone call that lifted everything off my shoulders. I've found it simply takes the right person to listen when you need it most.

I almost felt uncomfortable sharing all the stress in my life with this person, but he just listened. I needed that. I won't lie, I was told a few of the stresses of his life too, but I just listened. I needed that, too.

The person you need to talk to most is almost always a phone call away. Whether it's a text message, a letter, a video, or a phone call. They're not far. Usually they're closer than you think. They're willing to listen. So, if it's one of those days when you want nothing but someone to listen, give them a call.

They're only a phone call away.

Twins?

2011-07-31T21:57:00.000-06:00

Well friends, IT IS OFFICIAL!!
I have discovered I have a twin. Her name is Jessica.
Remember this blog post... The Dentist is E.V.I.L?
Well, Little Jessica sent me this picture a few days ago.

Look familiar?
I thought so too. Just for a little comparison....
Here ya go...

So, it's now set in stone. My name is Hailey, and I have a twin named Jessica. :)
Oh, and we both don't like the dentist!!!!
It's fate.

Even On My Weakest Days

2011-07-30T09:21:00.000-06:00

Woke up late today and I still felt the sting of the pain.

But I brushed my teeth anyway. Got dressed through the mess,

and put a smile on my face.

I got a little bit stronger.

Riding in the car to work, and I'm trying to ignore the hurt,

So I turned on the radio. Stupid song made me think of you.

I listened to it for a minute, but then I changed it.

And I'm getting a little bit stronger.

Just a little bit stronger.

I'm done hoping that we can work it out.

I'm done with how it feels, spinning my wheels, and letting you drag my heart around.

And I'm done thinking you could ever change.

I know my heart will never be the same.

But I'm telling myself I'll be okay, even on my weakest days.

I get a little bit stronger.

It doesn't happen overnight, then you turn around and months gone by.

And you realize you haven't cried.

I'm not giving you an hour, or a second, or another minute longer.

I'm busy getting stronger.

I'm done hoping that we can work it out.

I'm done with how it feels, spinning my wheels, and letting you drag my heart around.

And I'm done thinking you could ever change.

I know my heart will never be the same.

But I'm telling myself I'll be okay, even on my weakest days.

I get a little bit stronger.

Getting along without you, baby.

I'm better off without you, baby.

How does it feel without me, baby?

I'm getting stronger without you, baby.

I'm done hoping that we can work it out.

I'm done with how it feels, spinning my wheels, and letting you drag my heart around.

And I'm done thinking you could ever change.

I know my heart will never be the same.

But I'm telling myself I'll be okay, even on my weakest days.

I get a little bit stronger.

Just get a little bit stronger.

I get a little bit stronger.

Just a little bit stronger.

A little bit, a little bit, a little bit stronger.

A little bit stronger.

Sometimes, I wish letting go were this easy.

oh, summer.

2011-07-26T00:32:00.000-06:00

summer, you are a funny summer this year.

I have love just about every second of you.

Whether it's treating me to taco bell on a sunny day even though there are 7 cars in the drive through, or sneaking up to the windmills, or listening to one of my best friends play the guitar, you surely have been wonderful.

I'm so excited for your last few weeks. Summer of 2011 will be my most memorable summer yet.

I love you summer.

expect a surprise soon.

2011-07-24T12:01:00.000-06:00

I have a VERY long story coming for all of you blogstalkers.

Here's a sneak peek.

The Next Days.

2011-07-20T22:49:00.000-06:00

I couldn't tell you why, but I'm hardly excited for my birthday.

The older I get, the less important they become.

I have to work from 8:30 am to 4:00 pm. Then I'm taking my sister to my other job to teach her how to do it. Then I'm going to run errands for our camping trip. Then I'm going to come home and sleep.

Oh, how lovely sleep sounds.

Speaking of... Good night.

tonight.

2011-07-20T00:30:00.000-06:00

i realized i'm a chicken.
i realized it's okay to get something different on the menu.
i threw rocks in a lake.
i was content.

I can't hear the frogs outside tonight. I think it's too windy and cold. It makes me sad that I can't hear them. It usually got my mind off of things. I could be in for a long night tonight.

music.

2011-07-19T00:26:00.000-06:00

just to get my post in for the day...
be expecting legit music from myself and taylor VERY SOON.
p.s. my birthday is in 2 days.
yes.

Yes and No

2011-07-17T17:57:00.002-06:00

I recently started following a blog called Kind Over Matter. It's the most positive site I've ever visited. I love it so much. Some days when I just feel worthless, I like to read the daily post. It's so uplifting.

Click HERE to be uplifted.

This is the kind of things she posts to her blog.

Click HERE to see one of my favorite things she's ever posted.

Anyway, I found this on her page today and decided it would be a wonderful thing to blog about.

"You have permission to say no whenever you like, however you like, in whatever kind of voice you like, without feeling like only Mean Girls Say No and Nice Girls Say Yes. That’s bull. Yes and No have equal weighting – what’s important is if you use them when they are the best thing for you, not out of fear, obligation or guilt."

I love this. I think it's so insightful. So many girls today are too afraid to say no.

I've felt fat before. I've felt the pressure to be skinnier. And I'm a healthy weight.

I've felt pressured to be better. Mostly on stage. And I was blessed with a talent.

I've felt pressured to change for a boy and for a friend. I wanted to change thinking it would improve the relationship. I should only change for two people. Myself and God.

I'm 100% positive that every single girl has felt this way before.

I know it for a fact.

But what all of us seem to forget is, "No."

You can say "No" to all the pressure the media and even your peers surround you with.

You can say "No" to people begging more from you when you're giving 100%.

You can say "No" to those who ask you to change. Especially if it's not for the better.

You can say "No" to anyone or anything.

When push comes to shove, you need to do what's best for you.

I also love this because it tells you to also say yes.

"Yes and No have equal weighting."

You can say yes to wanting a healthy diet.

You can say yes to giving it 110% if your capable.

You can say yes to a healthy change within a relationship.

Yes is a good word.

A quote from one of my favorite movies:

"YES!"

-Yes Man

Life is all about yes and no. The meaning of each one depends on the way you say them.

Don't be too passive when saying yes.

Don't be too bold when saying no.

Yes & No.

It's as easy as that.

Memorable.

2011-07-17T00:47:00.001-06:00

I'm going to be blogging AS MUCH AS POSSIBLE for the next month or so.
There'll be a lot of changes soon.
Good changes. Bad changes.
I want to remember them.
I'm planning on blogging once a day even if once a day means twice a day due to the time I blog. (like right now, i'm blogging at one in the morning. pathetic.)

Here's what I'm blogging about tonight.

DisneyPixar's new short film is called The Ballad of Nessie.
It's a story of Nessie. The Loch Ness Monster. Nessie is sweet. She loves her life until something goes terribly wrong. She feels lost. Like everything good in her life is gone. She tries to find happiness. She tries to find something to replace what she once had. She does her best to hide how she feels after a friend tells her, "Keep a stiff neck. Don't cry. Be a braveheart. Chin up."
Nessie finds it to hard to deal with. She finally lets everything out. Good comes out of it. She finds happiness through her sadness. She learns a valuable lesson. A lesson that I have recently learned.

"Don't be afraid to cry. It really is okay. Sometimes it's through our tears that we find a better way."

BFFL

2011-07-16T00:17:00.001-06:00

Meet Lucas.

He's one of my very best friends.

He let's me vent for hours at a time.

He goes on picnics with me.

He laughs at my jokes.

He agrees with me on just about everything.

He takes me to Winnie The Pooh.

He sends me text that I save in my phone and read every morning.

He buys cool CD's.

He takes me on dates.

He's honest with me.

He sends me scriptures on crummy nights.

He lets me be a baby when it isn't called for.

He's my BFFL.

I'll miss him when he leaves.

Love you, Lucas.

Life, can do terrible things.

2011-07-14T23:25:00.001-06:00

"So, don't fall in love. There's just too much to lose. If you're given the choice I'm begging you choose to walk away. Don't let it get you. I can't bear to see the same happen to you.

Now, son, I'm only telling you this because life can do terrible things."

-Terrible Things

Mayday Parade.

A lot of Words For You To Read.

2011-07-10T20:13:00.001-06:00

Oh my good heavens, how busy life has been. I've had some very fun times, very crazy times, very sad times, and very memorable times. I don't know what it is about the past week or so, but I've realized how fast my life is changing, and I'm trying desperately to fit as much as I want to remember in before all the changes come.

We'll start off with the not so happy first... just so we can end with happy.

Last night was when it hit me. I was playing volleyball and a memory, one I've never considered a memory before, answered every question I've had the past few weeks.I realized, whether it's the loss of someone close to you, the parting of ways between you and someone, or just an end to a relationship. You eventually forget their face. No matter how many pictures or memories you think of, you eventually forget what they look like. You forget the little details that you spent so many hours admiring. You forget dimples, scars, eyelashes, hairlines, shapes, and shadows. You forget so many things. That happened to me last night. I realized I have forgotten what so many people who meant the world to me look like. I cried and I most certainly hurt, but now I've realized why this happens. Once you forget their face, it's time to move on. You're ready to move on. You're ready to be okay with where your life is at and where it's going to go. At least, this is how I feel. The past few weeks have felt like years and I've been surprisingly good at hiding what I've been thinking and how I've been feeling.

I know I've shocked a lot of people. I've shocked myself. I know I've also confused a lot of people. And I promise you, I've confused myself. Don't get me wrong, time hasn't been easy on me, but for some reason, it insists on going by fast. Missions are quickly approaching for a few of my very close friends. Summer is coming to an end. College is becoming reality rather that a distant thought. And my very best friend is leaving for college in a whole different state. I don't want any of them to go, but I know if they're suppose to be in my life, I won't ever forget their faces. I couldn't even if I tried. They've done too much for me.

I won't like, it feels good to get that out. But, I think now it's time to focus on everything good. Where should I start. I hope you're ready for a very long blog post.

Let me tell you about my best friend. Her name is Taylor.
Last night, I texted her a very long text. It was random. It wasn't important. It was sad. It wasn't something she needed to know. I simply told her because I knew she'd have something to tell me in return to make me feel better. I fell asleep after sending the text. For some odd reason that always seems to happen to me. But, this morning I woke up to a voicemail from Taylor. Knowing I was asleep, she told me she would leave me a voicemail to wake up to. She said a billion nice things. She said a billion things that she knew would make me feel better. She's truly my best friend. I love her.

I mean, come on. Who has a best friend that takes smokin' pictures with you?

Family reunions are also a wonderful part of my day. Well, I guess year. I think this is the best reunion we've had yet. All the family came here this year. Of course, we just had to do bear world. Being there every day still hasn't gotten old. After bear world we had a massive BBQ at Tonya and Josh's house. I love BBQ's. I always go straight into a food coma afterwards. The menu consisted of pulled pork, potato salad, tortellini salad, fruit salad, s'mores, homemade peach cobbler, homemade ice cream, and my favorite of the night: COTTON CANDY.
Yes. We made cotton candy.

Only cool families have cotton candy machines at their reunions. We had one. Therefore, we are cool. My family is the best. They're the best I could ever ask for. I love them so much. I love their sense of humor. There's never a dull moment with them. I love their cooking. I'd be much too skinny if I didn't have them. I love their kids. I wouldn't be insane if it weren't for them. I have the best family ever. I love them.

There is so much I'm looking forward to for the rest of the year. Candy stores, work, more family, friends, the last of our campfire nights, my birthday, and happiness are only a few of the things I'm looking forward to.

Cupcakes, Baby Toes and Independence Day.

2011-07-05T21:22:00.001-06:00

Oh, happy day.

So much fun stuff the past few days.

Fireworks with the family=wonderful.

Not only did we have fireworks, but we had a fire.

Oh, and did I mention baby toes were involved?

I made cupcakes. I have NEVER made fancy cupcakes before. It was flipping fun, and the result was most definitely worth it. So worth it.

Bear world parties are fun, but showing off my battle wounds is even funner.

(I'm not telling you the fact that I got this "battle wound" on the stinking inflatables)

Sneaking into the shop to see a new baby white elk is also fun.

Maverick is his name.

Look at this adorable-ness.

And to end this post of pictures with a bang... here's some more fun things for your eyes.

I. HATE. SPIDERS.

2011-06-29T12:53:00.001-06:00

You guys, I just saw this spider.

I was in my room, innocently closing my window. You know that feeling you get when you can just feel something looking at you? Well, I felt that way. So, of course, I looked down. THERE IT WAS! JUST STARING AT ME. It's eyes staring daggers into my soul.

IT. WAS. TERRIFYING.

I courageously picked up a package of gum and viciously smashed it! BUT IT DIDN'T DIE! It just wiggled and struggled and scared me! It fell onto the floor and because of my brown carpet, I COULDN'T FIND IT!!!!!

The outcome of this event: My sheets are in the washer and I will not be sleeping very soundly tonight.

Gosh, I hate spiders.

friends

2011-06-27T17:08:00.002-06:00

okay. i'm going to brag here for a second.
I seriously have the best friends in the world. They've been so great to me lately and I love them. There are millions of reasons why I love them and here's just a few of them.

They take pictures at campfire night with me.

They take cute pictures.

They're good-lookin' cowboy's.

They take me on horseback rides.

They go to Nielsen's with me.

They take extremely cool pictures.

They get stuck in swings and then pretend to be in love.

They put their feet in canals.

They let me take pictures of their custard faces. :)

I seriously have the best friends ever. I love them to death. I can't wait to see what's in store for the rest of summer.

Someone Like You

2011-06-25T16:40:00.001-06:00

I was driving to work a few days ago, and heard this song on the new Adele CD. At that moment I felt everything I'd been hiding over the past couple weeks. It's been a weird summer. I haven't really been able to explain how I've been feeling. Not bitter, angry, or sad. But not happy, carefree, or excited either. It's been an adjustment. I have friends that are leaving, and I have friends that have already left. I have parted ways with some people who I thought I'd be with my whole life. Hearing this song just got everything out that I wasn't able to let out on my own. Some people use sports or hobbies to get out their emotion. Some use eating or drinking and so on. But, I use music.

The song is called Someone Like You by Adele. Here is what she has to say about writing the song.

"This one was me kind of on my knees really. The entire relationship was really summed up in Someone Like You. It has changed me in a really good way. It has really made me who I am at the moment. I'm sure there will be another relationship that helps change me and define me as well."

I couldn't agree with her more.

I heard that you're settled down. That you found a girl and you're married now. I heard that you dreams came true. I guess she gave you things I didn't give to you.

Old friend, why are you so shy? It ain't like you to hold back or hide from the lie.

I hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited, but I couldn't stay away. I couldn't fight it. I'd hoped you'd see my face and that you'd be reminded that for me, it isn't over.

Nevermind, I'll find someone like you. I wish nothing but the best for you, too. Don't forget me, I beg. I remember you said: "Sometimes it lasts in love, but sometimes it hurts instead."

Sometimes it lasts in love, but sometimes it hurts instead.

You'd know how the time flies. Only yesterday was the time of our lives. We were born and raised in a summery haze bound by the surprise of our glory days.

I hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited, but I couldn't stay away. I couldn't fight it. I'd hoped you'd see my face and that you'd be reminded that for me, it isn't over yet.

Nevermind, I'll find someone like you. I wish nothing but the best for you, too. Don't forget me, I beg. I remember you said: "Sometimes it lasts in love, but sometimes it hurts instead."

Sometimes it lasts in love, but sometimes it hurts instead.

Nothing compares, no worries or cares.

Regret's and mistakes they're memories made.

Who would have known how bittersweet this would taste?

Nevermind, I'll find someone like you. I wish nothing but the best for you, too. Don't forget me, I beg. I remember you said: "Sometimes it lasts in love, but sometimes it hurts instead."

Sometimes it lasts in love, but sometimes it hurts instead.

From a storybook...

2011-06-25T00:29:00.002-06:00

"I love you quicker than a minute.

I love you longer than an hour.

I love you like the honeybee loves buzzing round a flower.

I love you stronger than the wind.

I love you softer than a cloud.

I love when you are quiet, and I love when you are loud.

I love you closer than your shadow.

I love you further than the sun.

I love you, too, when raindrops fall, one by one by one.

I love you round and round the world.

I love you through and through.

And when it seems impossible to love you more...

I do."

-All The Ways I Love You

The Adventure of the Day

2011-06-23T00:02:00.001-06:00

I almost died today.
(not literally, but kind of)
(i actually didn't even come close to dying. i'm just being SUPER dramatic)

After 13 hours of work, I went to Spine and Sport Physical Therapy (one of my 3 jobs) to clean the office space in the back of the building that is for rent. Someone is renting it out and is moving their stuff in next week, so I figured today would be a great day to go clean it.

So, I got there, had all my cleaning stuff, and started my cleaning escapade. Guys, this office space is a whole 400 sq. feet. Big deal. Well, I went outside to grab something I had left outside, and shut the door behind me. Guess what... The door was definitely locked. Big deal, right? WRONG. When I turned to go back inside, the door wouldn't open. The door would not open. I'm not going to lie, I let a few choice words slip as I struggled with the door handle. Well, as I looked into the window (the door is pretty much a giant window, perfect for staring straight into) I realized my purse was in there. Not a big deal, right? Wrong! My purse was in there. So was my phone. So were my keys. I swear on my life the little objects that meant so much at the time were just staring at me. Taunting me. Laughing at my stupidity. Oh curse those stinking important items that I needed so desperately at the time.

Well, my solution to the problem was easy. Just run across the street to find a phone. Guys, I'm not joking at all here. As I was turning around, I heard a crash of thunder and rain started to violently pour! JUST MY STINKING LUCK! So, in the violently pouring rain, I sprinted as fast as possible across the street to Artic Circle. In the pouring rain. It was freezing. FREEZING I SAY.

After struggling for about 10 minutes of getting a hold of my mom, she finally answered. She was one of 3 people I could call due to the lack of cell phone at the time.

Well, my boss came to unlock the door for me. As I pitifully waved to him in soaking wet clothes, I felt no embarassment at all. It was great. :) Of course, he laughed at me the second he was out of the car. After the door was unlocked, I explained my story with no shame. He laughed. Again.

I guess the funniest part of this story is the fact that as he walked out, he locked the door and said, "Be careful, and don't leave this door open. I don't want someone stealing you."

Oh, goodness. My life should be a movie.
Goodnight, pals.

Happy Birthday

2011-06-21T23:16:00.001-06:00

Dear best friend we've almost killed ourselves with our driving multiple times. We've butted heads for no reason at all. We've done one of the best shows Rigby High School has ever seen together. We've planned trips. We've talked on the phone for long periods of time. We've sang at the top of our lungs.

Now we are planning to skype each other while in different states. Now we are growing up and getting ready to go our separate ways. Now we are planning to audition for the Playmill together in a year. Now we are planning our futures. Now we are getting old, but you'll always be one of my best best best friends.

Thank you for being there for me, literally through thick and thin. Thank you for hugging me when I cry. Thank you for singing at the top of your lungs with me. Thank you for always pushing me to my fullest potential.

You're the best friend anyone could ever ask for.

Happy Birthday.

Dear Daddy,

2011-06-19T18:24:00.001-06:00

Thank you for throwing that praying mantis in my oatmeal leading to a lifelong hate for both hot cereal, and giant long bugs.

Thank you for letting me zip myself up in your coat on cold 4-wheeler rides.

Thank you for taking me camping, even when I would rather have been with my friends.

Thank you for teaching me that tomatoes are the worst thing ever.

Thank you for letting me listen to my music at extremely loud volumes.

Thank you for waking me up on Sunday mornings because the house was too quiet.

Thank you for letting Grant and I play with plungers at the hardware store.

Thank you for letting me go out with boys without ever seriously threatening my date.

Thank you for leaving the door unlocked so I could get into the house after a long night.

Thank you for taking me out to dinner countless times.

Thank you for taking me to the Daddy Daughter Date Night when I was in achievement days. It was the first corsage I ever wore and it was the first time I ever felt like a real princess.

Thank you for taking me to Sportsman's Warehouse when I was supposed to be grounded because you felt bad that I couldn't leave the house.

Thank you for loving mom unconditionally.

Thank you for teaching Grant, Whitney, and I responsibility.

Thank you for making weird desserts all the time.

Thank you for asking mom why I cried when I was sad, instead of asking me.

Thank you for checking on me when I sat in my room by myself after a bad day.

Thank you for taking ridiculous pictures with me.

Thank you for not telling mom when I would be out later than I was supposed to be.

Thank you for supporting me and watching my shows.

Thank you for coming to my choir concerts.

Thank you for always wanting me to come eat lunch with you.

Thank you for crying at my graduation because only good dads cry.

Thank you for buying me my laptop.

Thank you for trying to convince me to live at home for college.

Thank you for not wanting me to take the next step in my life.

Thank you for letting me be little.

And now, thank you for letting me grow up.

2011-06-19T02:37:00.001-06:00

Joseph and the Amazing Technicolor Dreamcoat at the Playmill Theater is absolutely amazing. If you haven't seen it yet. I suggest you go. You won't regret it.

Yeah. Yeah. It's 2:30 a.m. I know. I can't sleep. Life's changing to quick to take a break and sleep. I just want to sit here and think.

Tonight I am thankful for:

2011-06-17T23:51:00.001-06:00

music. To express how I feel without requiring me to use much energy.
good books. To keep me company on lonely nights.
best friends. To do whatever it takes to keep my mind off of things.
tanning lotion. To make me feel a little bit more beautiful and a little less pale.
the book of mormon. To comfort me when I really am in need.

Today was a long day.

I have to blog tonight.... late.

2011-06-16T23:51:00.000-06:00

My life just changed.
The plans I had for my future just changed.
I'm not dying. I'm not worse off. I'm just different. Already.
It hurts, and I would think that the second time around I'd be able to handle it better.
But I can't.
I'm going to do my best to be happy. I hate hiding emotion, but I know I need to be happy or I won't get through this.

"There is a difference between thinking you deserve to be happy and knowing that you are worthy of happiness." -Oprah Winfrey

I'll know I'm worthy of that happiness as soon as this storm passes, but for right now, I just need to be sad.

Tradition and Inspiration

2011-06-11T19:58:00.002-06:00

First off, my dear sweet friends and I have made campfire nights a weekly tradition. Every Thursday we plan to get together in Lucas's back yard, bring food to contribute to our campfire dinners, and of course, s'mores. Things like this excite me.
1) because i love tradition
2) because i love repetition
3) because i love campfires
4) because i love eating food cooked over a campfire
5) because i love my friends very very much.
You'll probably get pictures once a week. Hopefully they won't all look the same. :)

Aside from my leisure time, this is what Amanda and I do at work...

Why is the title of this post Tradition and Inspiration...
Well, of course the tradition goes along with our new weekly campfires, but this is where the inspiration comes into place. A few months ago I discovered THIS blog. I love it. So So So So much.
My new obsession is owls. I didn't like them at first, but they've slowly grown on me. And the blossoming of this newfound love can be blamed on Busy Bee Lauren's post about Owls Around The House. I love love love them now, so here's my first owl accessory.

P.s. Sam had an appointment down here and, I guess you could say, surprised me by coming to take me on a drive at 11:30 at night. With wet hair, pajamas, and no makeup on, I willingly went. It was absolutely wonderful to see him and spend some time with him. I'm planning a Playmill trip VERY soon. :)

I'm now going to look for my camera charger. And then I'm off to Neilson's Frozen Custard with Taylor for some dessert. :)

not camping...

2011-06-06T17:29:00.002-06:00

warm, smoking campfires and s'mores.
best friends and sweets galore!
planning exciting camping dates,
seeing bunnies is only fate.
slack lining so high up in the air,
staying up for very long is rare.
"hiking" through the cottonwoods,
reminiscing on our "so-long-ago childhoods."
trying to tell scary stories,
laughing with s'mores in our bellies.
(i know that doesn't rhyme, but i still think it's awesome)

Items Of Business

2011-06-02T18:26:00.001-06:00

ITEM OF BUSINESS #1:
My 30 day challenge is going wonderfully. Except for the fact that I ate 5 s'mores last night. I'm a big fat pig. But you can't help it when you have your best friends, marshmallows, chocolate, and gram crackers all around a campfire! I still haven't eaten a single piece of candy at work and I haven't had a single fudge sample. Living off of weightwatcher meals isn't bad either. The pizza ones are extremely good. :)
oh... and p.s. i stepped on the scale for the first time in 4 days to see if i'd made any progress... I've lost 3 lbs. No joke.

ITEM OF BUSINESS #2:
I am planning my friends wedding. Literally. I've found a cake decorator. I've helped her decide on table placements. And luckily she already had a dress. Oh, did I mention I'm working 3 jobs and it's in 2 months. Yikes!!

ITEM OF BUSINESS #3:
Last night was a total blast. Me, Taylor, Lucas, Steven, and Andrew had a campfire. We roasted marshmallows and made s'mores. Then we slack lined. That was fun. I fell. But luckily Steven caught me. Then we went on an adventure. (just through the cottonwoods, but it was still scary)

ITEM OF BUSINESS #4:
I'm going to Playmill this saturday. I'm so excited I can't even tell you. I miss my boyfriend. Hopefully, I'll get to talk to him for a little bit.

Peace out.

May 30, 2011

2011-05-30T21:05:00.001-06:00

Day 1:
-I ate no sweets today. I have a major sweet tooth right now. I'm dying. But I feel good.
-I took A LOT of steps today. Definitely hit my 20,000 goal. My feet are aching.
-No pop. It's gross anyway.
-I snacked on a handful of mixed nuts today. Cashews and peanuts are really the only ones I like.
-I ate peanuts for breakfast. I was in a huge hurry.
-I had carrots, cherries, cheese and crackers, and yogurt for lunch.
-I had asparagus, a piece of french bread, and chicken for dinner.

When your consciously being healthy, it's frustrating. Fudged looked like the best thing ever today. I haven't even been in the mood for any lately. I didn't have a single crumb though.

Here's what I really wanted to talk about...

I miss my best friend. He's the world's best listener. He's in West Yellowstone, Montana for the summer at the Playmill Theater. He's Joseph in Joseph and the Amazing Technicolor Dreamcoat. He's perfect for that part. He's also extremely busy because of rehearsals. I haven't been able to hardly talk to him for the past week. It's weird. I miss him. He's my best friend.
Saturday couldn't come fast enough.

I Had To Blog Twice Today.

2011-05-29T22:43:00.001-06:00

I have to blog twice today because of this:

You guys, It was absolutely disgusting. This guy is insane.

Here's a summary of this movie:

On the heels of recent lawsuits against McDonald's, director Morgan Spurlock takes a hilarious and often terrifying look at the effects of fast food on the human body, using himself as the proverbial guinea pig. For one month, Spurlock eats nothing but McDonald's, ordering everything on the menu and "super-sizing" his order whenever asked. The result is a sobering examination of the line between personal and corporate responsibility.

This guy, Morgan Spurlock ate McDonalds for breakfast, lunch, and dinner for 30 days. It was disgusting here are some of his side affects:

Chest pains after 3 days
Moments of depression
Mood Swings
17 lbs. gained in 12 days
inflammation & hardening of the liver

One thing that absolutely shocked me was this:

On day 21, Morgan woke up at 2 a.m. and couldn't breathe. He felt obvious heart palpitations. To try to make himself feel better, he got up and walked around his living room. He contacted his doctors the next day.

Morgan gained 24.5 lbs. His starting weight was 185.5. Here are his weight totals at the end of each week for 4 weeks.

starting weight= 185.5 lbs.
ending weight (week 1)= 194 lbs.
ending weight (week 2)= 203 lbs.
ending weight (week 3)= 202 lbs.
final weight (week 4)= 210 lbs.

Just so you know, it took him 5 months to lose 20 lbs. and another 9 months to lose the last 4.5 lbs.

I don't know why this movie grossed me out so bad, but I've made some goals for myself. I'm going to see if it changes my daily mood/energy. I'm also going to see if I lose any weight. Here's one thing you've got to understand first. I only eat fast food about once ever week or two. I only drink pop about three times a month. I do A LOT of walking during the day and I rarely snack. I have a feeling this is going to be interesting.

My goals:

no fast food for 30 days (excluding a small jamba juice every once in a while)
no pop for 30 days
work out for 20 minutes per day (or take at least 20,000 steps which is approx. 2 miles)
1 snack per day (healthy)
3 steady meals (no skipping meals)
NO CANDY OR FUDGE FOR 30 DAYS

I want to be healthier because of this movie. It really hit me. It actually slapped me in the face. I don't eat out that much. I don't really have the money to. I'm going to tell you about these next 30 days as they come. Hopefully, I see results. Hopefully, it's worth it. All I know is a big salad sounds really great right now. I like my liver too much to throw it away with a nasty Big Mac.

Goodbye unhealthy, hello healthy.

Jamba.

2011-05-29T19:34:00.001-06:00

This is the best thing to ever happen to Jamba Juice.

It's the new Tropical Mango fruit smoothie. With coconut milk.

It is amazing.

It's only at Jamba for a limited time.

I will die when they get rid of it.

I will just die.

Dressing Up & The Death of Me

2011-05-26T17:49:00.001-06:00

My friends are funny. So, I get a text from Cree on night saying, "Meet at Jacob's house at 7 Wednesday. Dress up as a member of a clique you weren't apart of in highschool. We're watching Mean Girls."

Oh my word. Can I just say, we are funny. Not all of us dressed up, but the cool ones did! :)

Myself, Hailey, being a choir and theater nerd dressed up as a cheerleader. I would never and could never be a cheerleader. I bend like a board. I am the least flexible person I've ever come across. Just so you know.

Spencer dressed up as a "skater". If you know Spencer, you know he's the total opposite. Granted, he plays football and was in the school musical, he's still not meant to be a skater.

Natalie dressed up as a farmer. Haha. Natalie isn't a farmer. I promise.

Now, my favorite one of the night... CREE. Ahahahahaha! I'm laughing just thinking about it. Cree stuck a pillow in her stomach and was a teen mom. Ahahahahahaha! Oh my. If you know Cree, you know she is the absolute last person that would EVER be found in this situation, which is why it was so freaking hilarious.

Pictures? Okay... you convinced me.

My camera loves to give me crazy red eye.

It really was a great night. Now, while my nights are filled with fun adventures, my days are filled with temptation by this:

FUDGE.

I love is so much. I love it so so much. Doodle's Nut Roll and Cookie Bear will be the death of me. Doodle's Nut Roll is vanilla fudge with a layer of peanuts, peanut butter, and caramel. Oh my gosh. It is so stinking good. Cookie Bear is chocolate fudge with cookie dough bites inside and crushed heath bar on top. IT'S THE BEST THING EVER!

That's the best way to get fat. :)

P.s. I see things like this on a daily basis. Be jealous.

Yes, those are baby bears.

Yes, they're adorable.

This Time Of Night

2011-05-24T23:06:00.002-06:00

This time of night is a strange time. I do the same thing every night. Relax, shower, put my pajamas on, put my socks on, and climb into bed. As I climb into my cozy bed I start to think of everything I experienced throughout my day. This is what I thought of tonight...

The death toll from multiple tornadoes in Missouri as of an hour ago is 122. That's 122 people who didn't get to finish out their life. I can't image what those people went through.

I can't imagine looking out at a disaster like this. I can't imagine having my car and home ripped from me in just minutes. I can't imagine looking at something knowing the disaster it would leave behind.

My heart goes out to these people.

I thought of these lyrics when I was watching the news tonight.

"Send them your heart so they'll know that someone cares. So their cries for help will not be in vain. we can't let them suffer. No we cannot turn away. Right now they need a helping hand."

O.C.D

2011-05-23T22:45:00.002-06:00

Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder (OCD)- an anxiety disorder in which people have unwanted and repeated thoughts, feelings, ideas, sensations (obsessions), or behaviors that make them feel driven to do something (compulsions).

Could I be obsessive-compulsive? I think so. Let me show you what goes on in my life.

I did these at Bear World today.
I'm crazy.
I obsessed over organizing these all day. I don't even care that it took me hours to do it either. There's more too. There are probably 10 shelves I didn't take pictures of. There's also a giant display of these crazy moose and bear figurines that was just driving me absolutely nuts. I fixed it though, so it's okay.
I hate disorder. I love being able to organize things and watch my progress. Do you know how triumphant it makes me feel to see the before and after of something? Oh, my word. You have no idea. I love being able to find everything. I love rows and columns. I love straightening things. I love putting things in groups.

Example #1:
Sometimes, actually 99% of the time, I divide my skittles and m&m's into colors. Then I put the different colors into pyramids. Then I eat them diagonal row by diagonal row. That way they stay in pyramids until the very last one.

Example #2:
You know how in the dishwasher, there is a place for silverware, knives, small kitchen utensils, etc.? Well, when I load my dishwasher, or anyone's dishwasher for that matter, I put all the spoons in one spot. All the butter knives in one spot. All the forks in one spot. All the spatulas in one spot. All the steak knives in one spot and so on and so forth. If someone has loaded the dishwasher before me, and there's still room for more, I will take the time to organize all the silverware in their own spots. I usually start with spoons.

Example #3:
When I use crayons, markers, colored pencils, etc., I organize them by colors. Darkest to lightest. First black, brown, grey, white (These are the only ones that don't go in order. In order, they'd be black, grey, white, and brown.) Reds next, because red and white look good together. Red, pink, purple, blue, green, yellow, orange, and any group of colors after that.

I don't know why I do these things. Maybe because it makes me feel good? It really does. I obsess over it. If my sister uses my crayons during church, I simply fix any crayons she does not put back in order. If someone loads the dishwasher wrong, I fix it. If I have an awkward skittle or m&m that doesn't look right in the pyramid, I eat it. Fixing, organizing, and stacking things just makes me feel better. I love order. It's common sense to me.

The End.

May 21, 2011

2011-05-21T18:04:00.001-06:00

Today was a funny day. First off, BEAR WORLD. Of course. Tayler and I were bored (we may have slightly slacked the first half of our shift) so we did things like this:

That's cheese and crackers... if you're wondering.

And we take pictures like this:

YBW is funny when it's not busy.

Then we talked about how we blog-stalk EVERYONE.

One of my favorites that I blog stalk is Raw Eating (I totally just named that myself). It's this girl who decided to go on a raw diet. I give her props. I could never stop eating meat, but some of the recipes she shares are sooooooo amazing.

That's just a random little rant right there. And that's pretty much all for right now... so BYE!

look at this little Beebee!

2011-05-20T21:02:00.001-06:00

Look at him! I apologize for the giant wad of gum in my mouth. But look at that face!!!! Isn't he cute?! Yes, I do love babysitting baby gabriel. He's so fun. I want a baby I can give back whenever he/she cries. Ha! Yeah, like that's ever gonna happen! I'll just wait a few years!

Today's been good. I worked longer than I'd like to, but hey, college, HERE I COME!!! I'm excited.

P.s. I bought my Playmill ticket. Opening night of Joseph. I'm so excited to see Sam play such an amazing character. He's going to be absolutely amazing. I know it. I'm so excited!!

This is an extremely random blogpost. I don't have much to blog about lately. Haha. Well, I do. But I don't want to write about anything but happy things!!

Thumbs up...

I made $70 today.
I went to a wedding reception.
I ate chocolate covered strawberries.
I wore very tall red high heels.
I'm wearing polkadot socks
My cousins are in town.

Thumbs down...

I've only talked to Sam for about 2 minutes today.
I made myself sick with fudge.
I forgot my lunch today.
My phone keeps turning off.
I am very sleepy.

The randomness of the post is confusing me. I don't know what I'm thinking. I'm crazy, I guess.

I JUST FOUND OUT THE TWO COUNTRY SINGS ARE THE TOP 2 THIS SEASON ON AMERICAN IDOL!!! That's the stupidest thing I have ever heard. Neither one of them deserve it. What happened to Hailey and James?! Gosh. America, you suck at picking good singers!

Anyway... I'm ripping all my CD's onto my computer on my iTunes. It's annoying. Hahahaha! Oh my. I'm crazy.

I WANT TO HAVE A ROYAL WEDDING!!!

I'm a freak.

GOOD BYE!